Hidden emotions. We hide our emotions because we don't want other people to worry about us, thus we'll put up an act and act as though we are happy when actually we are not. That's what I learnt in school and that is exactly what I'm undergoing right now. I am hiding my feelings. Trying so hard to hide my emotions.

When I received the news, for a moment or two, I feel that I could hide no more. I burst into tears. I feel that I couldn't tell this to anyone. One, is busy playing. The other one, have got her own problems to deal with. I don't want to bother anyone else with my little problem. Some may think that, its a "hey, relax everything will be fine" kind of problem. But I don't think that will likely be the case. I feel helpless. I don't know what to do next. Oh God.

:'( :'( :'(

I am emotionally weak. I pity her. Eventhough she may get on my nerves every now and then, I still pity her. Afterall we're connected.She worked so hard and I believe shower her love. But this is what she got in return? On the other hand however, I feel embarassed and frustrated towards the other party. I believe no words can describe the embarassment and frustration that I'm feeling now. No, I'm not feeling emo-emo here. Even as I'm typing this, I am weeping so badly. I don't know why this has to occur. All of us are grown ups. Old enough. Aren't you ashame? Oh c'mon, this is simply ridiculous. Tell me this is all a lie.

I swear I don't mind being beaten by you. Say what you want to say about me because what I know is, you are far more worst than me. That, I can bet you. Don't expect me to treat you with respect. You are such a disgrace!

I SERIOUSLY COULDN'T HANDLE THIS ANYMORE. TO MAKE THINGS WORST, BOYFRIEND ISN'T ANSWERING MY CALL. WHERE IN THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU WHEN I FUCKING NEED YOU! GODDDD HELP ME PLEASE !

Murnie. Neither 12 nor 14. But turning 18 by the end of the year. Attached and currently pursuing a diploma in RP. ;)