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I feel so Fked up. / Saturday, 18 August 2007

I finally changed my URL. I dont want people to know about it actually. Cause it will give me a limitation to talk about anyone. Euphoric-not.blogspot.com, yah. It reflected me, right at this moment. I feel so fucked up today, tho i spent my day, enjoyably ytd.

Anyway, I feel like putting this relationship to a halt. I couldnt handle this no more. Im serious. I aint sounding like an emoshit. But its real. I really really feel bitter now. He lied. He said that he wanted to bring me out to the movies. But he dint as well. If i had known, i would have just dragged him to watch the simpson. Bad move. Hah, talk about being true. Fk his words oke. Good enough that i made the effort to pass him a goodnight msg almost every single night, but what did i get in return ? NOTHING ! Great isnt it ? And when he msged me, it'll only be for awhile. *sigh. I thought of going to firework fest today, with him. And so, i msged him asking if he's working. Just trying my luck. He replied. He's not working today. But he said, he's going out. At that instant, I really feel shitty. Its been so long since we last went out together cause he's working. but now, when he's not working, he dint wanne go out with me. Like wth ?

Luckily, maira was there. She asked me to talk to him. But i just dont find any use in doing so. She said i dont deserve this. Thank you so much maira. Im not ready to let him go. I vowed to myself, another 4 more months, after i leave secondary school. Yes, thats when im ready to let him go, hopefully. He's the first guy whom i cherished most, compared to the other ex-s. I had my first kiss with him and almost all of my "firsts" with him. Shitto. I hope, and i mean seriously hope, i could bear with all this. It definately aint easy. I'll let him do whatever he wants to. I'll give him the cold shoulder if i have to.

Enough about that guy. On to ytd, went to fireworks festival. Went to have our lunch at LJS after getting fad's skinnies @ Penin. Very cheap. Like only $20+, compared to at bugis, $30. Aceh and gf din tag along. Maira and fel too. I din get to meet them. But the ones that were there was Bo and athirah, weiting, kyn, fad, apeiz, adzri and his 2 other friends, plus nurul alba. The fireworks were magnificent. We've got a clear view of it. Right infrnt of our eyes. After the whole thing, went to meet my sis and her bf, nani and anim near the fullerton hitachi building. Mind you, i was near the entrace of esplanade before this. So you can just imagine the distance. Went to have late night dinner at beach road. And gosh, anim was super arrogant PLUS merepek. In other words, step pun ader uh. No she aint a minah, but... she's a minah. Get wht i mean ?

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